FIClet: Rules (NCIS)

[audrarose]

Birthday fic for Rebecca (blueraccoon), a few days early, because I fangirl her, and when I grow up I want to write sex scenes like she does. (Which should be soon, I'm hoping, b/c I’m pretty sure I’m like, at least ten years older than she is.) In any case, this is sort of a companion piece to Secrets. No sex, but this is definitely a pre-slash pit stop on the way to the eventual collision. *g* So becca, happy happy, and I hope you have a wonderful day, sweetie. *hugs*






It’s one of his rules - Tony doesn’t fall for straight guys. Not since the first one, anyway, back in college. The fascination was brief, and only lasted long enough for him to figure out that there was no point in breaking his heart over the ones he couldn’t have when there were so many others who wanted to have him.

Tony can’t remember a time when people didn’t turn to look, men and women both. While everyone else at his prep-school was being pummeled by adolescence, he was simply kissed on the forehead and sent on his way from pretty child to pretty man, with all the awkwardness ending up on the inside. Tony might never be sure if people like him, but he knows they like looking at him, and that makes part of it easy. Because at least something should be easy. Every once in awhile.

So since Tony never falls for straight guys, it has to be something else with Gibbs. Maybe the need for approval. Or attention. Or affection or acceptance or something – but Tony has a feeling that he could work his way through the dictionary and it still wouldn’t explain why he can get hard just watching Gibbs walk into a room. And it’s more than just imagining what it would feel like to have Gibbs’ hands on him and wanting to know what Gibbs’ skin tastes like – Tony can sense a connection between them that has him reminding himself over and over why he made the rule in the first place.

That connection makes him weaken, and when Gibbs breaks into the dark place Jonathan’s words have sent him, it makes Tony want to say fuck the rules. It makes Tony want to tell Gibbs that this case has made him cold inside and afraid of the dark in a way he hasn’t been in a very, very long time.

But Tony doesn’t fall for straight guys. He smiles instead, and waits for Gibbs to walk away.

End



Okay, now I have to put Jethro and Tony away for awhile, b/c I left Jim tied to the bed in sen_thurs and I've got some serious first time J/B angst going on in Lorraine's as-of-yet unnamed monster. So many smut-muses, so little time. *BG*

Comments

[sori1773.livejournal.com]

I think I like it when you go all fangirly.. *G* This is seriously wonderful with a perfect Tony voice. And all this fine Tony angst is going to make Gibbs want to give him consolation sex which will piss off Tony and lead to anger sex which of course will lead to apologetic sex... This is quite the vicious circle you have set our boys on. *beg*

Thrilled to know you haven't forgotten to untie Jim. Sensitive sentinel wrists, ya know -- that tie will start to chafe if Blair's not careful. *G*

[blueraccoon.livejournal.com]

eeeee! beautiful fic for me! *hugs you* dude, when *I* grow up I want to write snips like this. Can I do that? Pretty please?

[neverbelonged.livejournal.com]

Awe. I love this. Very nicely written. I actually saw this on here before I saw it in my yahoo mail box. :) Great job.

[skripka.livejournal.com]

Please don't put them away for too long! This is lovely. I like your Tony voice.

[spikedluv]

But Tony doesn’t fall for straight guys. He smiles instead, and waits for Gibbs to walk away.

All I have to say is, 'damn you!'!! I don't want these boys in my head! Get them out. Now.

I draw the line at seeking out NCIS fic, but I might be persuaded to read it if I happen to come across it in my LJ. Maybe. *g*

In case you couldn't tell from the above bitching and complaining, I liked it. Too much, damn you!

[andeincascade.livejournal.com]

You rock, as usual, Audra! Go untie Jim and then give Tony a break, would ya?

Ande

[gigitrek.livejournal.com]

and only lasted long enough for him to figure out that there was no point in breaking his heart over the ones he couldn’t have when there were so many others who wanted to have him.

Oh, how sad. Practical, but sad.

Don't leave us for too long! We need you here!

[webbgirl.livejournal.com]

That was beautiful and sweet. It was a wonderful trip inside of Tony's psyche.

[castalie.livejournal.com]

Damn, you'll make me read NCIS slash, girl. Only you could achieve that lol

[elynross.livejournal.com]

Oh, what a lovely, lovely thing. And I can so see this!

[http://users.livejournal.com/oceana_/]

Oh, lovely! I really like your look at Tony.
there was no point in breaking his heart over the ones he couldn’t have when there were so many others who wanted to have him.

*nods*
That is so Tony. I always thought he was mostly straight, but that's not it. He just goes for the many people who want him, and if they happen to be mostly women, so be it. But he won't say no to the occasional men. Now, if Gibbs would get over his issue and make the first step...
*sigh*

[teddibear.livejournal.com]

*wibble* love angsty Tony. And this was so yum. And that line about his awkwardness being on the inside, ohhhh I can so relate. Nice.

The Gibbs companion piece was great too. Can't wait to read the sequels :)