Oooooh, this is brilliant! Painful and touching and so realistic - I've had nights like these, not quite when I've just failed to shoot somebody, of course, but nights when you're just so desperate to get drunk so that you can try and forget, but there's always this voice in your head watching, and knowing exactly how drunk you are and constantly reminding you *why* you're trying to get drunk.

Brilliantly done :)

(And yep, the 1000 word limit is a killer, isn't it *G*)